I was on Wel for 4 years. In Jan of 07 i kicked the habit. In my experience they did turn me into a zombie. I was masking something. My fathers death, my failure as a human being, my inability to satisfy my then girlfriend. I noticed my change after a few weeks. Things became manageable, the pain started to reside. I began to be a little bit happier.
I had also in November of 06 experienced a really hard break up. I began drinking while on Welle and the coming down off the buzz at the end of the night was near suicidal and unbearable crying fits. I finally decided one day in 2007 that I was done with all that shit. I walked away from the welle and the alcohol. I stayed clean from Welle until my breakdown in November of last year and i was clean of alcohol for 2 straight years. My battle is now with alcohol and I can say that getting off welbutrin, for me was easy. There was no tapering, i just threw the pills in the garbage. I never looked back and on days that seemed bad, I would remind myself that I am no longer medicated. I was on bupropriol for 30 days and after it was done, i stopped taking em and never had the scrip refilled.
At some point you look your demon in the face and say fuck you, "Im in control of how shitty i feel, no one else" I have found that you can buy into the whole "life is as good as you make it crap" but the truth is if you wear gray glasses, learn to love that shade of gray.
“Even if it is only for a matter of moments, because those moments bring with them a Love so intense that it justifies the rest of our days.”
― Paulo Coelho