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Heroin, Pain Pills, Methadone are all opioids (aka opiates) and it just plain sucks or feels impossible to get off of any of them. Share about stopping, detox, or the desire to stop any of these.

Re: mr newguy

Postby cheeps » Fri Mar 13, 2015 10:46 am

Noots.....sometimes starting over is just moving forward. Because moving forward is easier in my book....

What is the longest clean time from Opiates you've had in the last ten years? Are you still waiting to go to detox? Pick the longest program they have if you can. Time is the healer and even if you don't agree with what is being offered, the exercise of doing something Clean and the fellowship of people will take you through some uncomfortable times. I'm not a 12 stepper but being forced to do the first two in rehab that I chose, at least pinpointed my real DOC, which sanely enough is.....sugar and white carbs. The serotonin load it gives me is wonderful. Fuck opies....give me a huge bag of peanut butter and chocolate.

So....somewhere you will get to the bottom of your anxiety and need to medicate, BUT....you have to put yourself in the position to do so. :kiss:
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Re: mr newguy

Postby nootlsjr » Sat Mar 14, 2015 3:56 am

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Re: mr newguy

Postby cheeps » Sat Mar 14, 2015 10:19 am

nootlsjr wrote:I know life is priceless, but I paid out the ass for shit. all I know is im not gonna do anymore wd's, and im not using opys. guess theres no question, just a matter of time. wut could a new re awakened vampire dmbas do with his extra time in semi hell. I guess post on ss like an idiot.

I can fake normalcy better then anyone. [accept the sneezes [have to say allergy's or fab softer [waterever]. to hurt so bad in side and fake/adapt normalcy to your surroundings is amazing. im the only one that has to hurt a little longer then I can please many including myself. im that dude. lol. I feel like a bitch ass when I post, because my thoughts don't always show my true personality/morality. im shameless no doubt. I don't regret, I resolve. put that on a carpet cleaner commercial. lol. fuckers.

i think if things get real hard in the future im gonna try the dominatrix thing. fuck it, if its pain i like, then its pain i will get. in a positive contributional way. fuck it, enjoy it, protect it, love or hate it. the truth only hurts for the ones still alive. so im breathn, hurtn, and have the chance for something better then great.. yay.



aaaw fuck you dman.....it sucks having to hide a detox...that's WHY we are here. You are in good damn company with the rest of us fuckers. :kiss: :blowme:
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Re: mr newguy

Postby nootlsjr » Sat Mar 14, 2015 12:10 pm

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Re: mr newguy

Postby Sindysun » Sat Mar 14, 2015 4:59 pm

I hope you're doing ok. Stay strong Noot. You deserve to stop putting yourself through this. New start!
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Re: mr newguy

Postby cheeps » Sat Mar 14, 2015 6:17 pm

nootlsjr wrote:thank you cheeps. is that your real date on the bottom. I remember I was supposed to get clean around the same time as you, guess the same time as everyone else too.,lol. I get a little funny when in acute h wd, but im getting through. I cant live a lie. I cant lie to myself anymore. there is no better time then now, and its too late to turn back anyway. im in it for the long run. a bit scary and exciting, but I cant enjoy it till im out of doom. im one foot in, and one foot out. that's good. it goes through me fast, but perceived super harsh. I hope today brings me that much closer to peace of mind. fuck. its worth it. its inevitable. or death. I pick inevitably ouch, but yay. thanks.

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Re: mr newguy

Postby nootlsjr » Sun Mar 15, 2015 9:19 am

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Re: mr newguy

Postby cheeps » Sun Mar 15, 2015 11:56 am

You sound calmer....or less jagged....keep posting and doing whatever it takes to not score.
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Re: mr newguy

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Re: mr newguy

Postby runthemachine » Mon Mar 16, 2015 7:39 am

Where you at, noots? Day 3? Day 9? Day -1?? What's up, dude?

Post an (accurate) update, so I can chime in, man.

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Re: mr newguy

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Re: mr newguy

Postby Sindysun » Mon Mar 16, 2015 5:48 pm

You can't say you have a 60/40 shot at staying clean Noots. :( That's a set up. You have to feel you have no other option.
You care about other people. That's apparent. Care more about yourself! You are awesome and honest and worth it.

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Re: mr newguy

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Re: mr newguy

Postby Sindysun » Thu Mar 19, 2015 1:01 pm

How are you feeling? Is today day 2? Remember if you do it now you never have to feel this again. I'm so pulling for you! I know its not easy but I know you can do it. You want it. Stay away from those junkie chicks:)
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Re: mr newguy

Postby runthemachine » Fri Mar 20, 2015 10:03 am

Well Snoots,

This should be your (latest) Day 3. What's the verdict? Did you clean your house, as well as your phone? Are you down, but not out? Out & not down? What's the word, turd-bird??

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Re: mr newguy

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Re: mr newguy

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Re: mr newguy

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Re: mr newguy

Postby Sindysun » Sun Mar 22, 2015 5:21 pm

(((Hug)))))

It's all temporary. It's worth it. You can do it. You deserve it. Just stick it out, Noot. Wtf is the alternative????

Material wealth means nothing without physical and mental health. You can't say you have everything until you have sobriety.

Take some comfort meds so you can make it. It doesn't make sense not to take comfort meds. Dope vs comfort meds???? Easy decision! :)
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Re: mr newguy

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