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Heroin, Pain Pills, Methadone are all opioids (aka opiates) and it just plain sucks or feels impossible to get off of any of them. Share about stopping, detox, or the desire to stop any of these.

Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Tue Oct 06, 2015 9:04 am

day 26,

thanks cheeps, yesterday was rough, but today I feel better. I was able to drink a few dranks, and searched the drain for my intestines all morning. its the first time I took lope in a month. think im all flushed out/rung out now. I forget my number everyday. if I didn't post it, I would have to do the math every day. lol. 9/11/15. easy number to remember. now can I always remember the years of pain/agony. I think so. I know so. thanks, peace to a day free of thought. or free thought, or free to choose my thoughts. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby cheeps » Tue Oct 06, 2015 9:28 am

Oh baby I get it....go exercise, do something and hopefuLy have some peaceful satisfying thoughts. I know it is hard. For shits and giggles, look at dating sights or, oops sorry, no shits! Baby wipes are you friend...go get some probiotics...they help stop you up naturally.
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Re: my bad..

Postby cheeps » Tue Oct 06, 2015 9:31 am

Forgetting everything.....I remember having to relearn how to make coffee...I his stuff from myself everyday....a simple move...forgotten.

It will come back noots...it will return....and you will be better than ever.
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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Tue Oct 06, 2015 1:46 pm

thanks cheeps, I remember everyday of my life, but still cant remember anyone's name. lol.

im not worried thanks. my todays are so much better then the first couple weeks. im good for awhile, but the next couple weeks will be the denominator, or denomination. thanks, and have a nice fun filled day, or just keap workn till then. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Wed Oct 07, 2015 10:16 am

day 27,

im getting better, I feel 65% normal [the majority of]. i gain about 5% a week. im going to start adding 1 obligation a week, till i have no time for thought. just exhaustion. no time for self esteem. only time to keap going. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby Not a 12 stepper » Wed Oct 07, 2015 10:28 am

A month is a big milestone noots-



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Re: my bad..

Postby Poncho » Wed Oct 07, 2015 10:41 am

Big Congrats Noots ! :cheers2:
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Re: my bad..

Postby cheeps » Wed Oct 07, 2015 11:03 am

See....you have back up.


Thirty days coming soon....this Saturday...I hope you can get involved with a group of people or someone IRL that can support your efforts. This shit is hard and you have been thru the damn wringer. You have never given up because you are too obstinate and hard headed...you are sick of being told your smart, but you are, I wish you could turn these attributes towards something that brings you reward....if you were a fucking marine, I'd be scared shitless. :? :P
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Re: my bad..

Postby amery2u » Wed Oct 07, 2015 3:38 pm

Noots~!

Congrats, my man. You deserve this. Cheeps is right, you ARE very smart. Wit and wisdom is all Within YOU.

Still fighting bronchitis, and trucking along.

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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Thu Oct 08, 2015 11:33 am

day 28,

thanks everyone, did I win the bet or something. lol. I didn't know I had so many friends. [good advisers] thanks.

cheeps, I have no more, or less potential then the next person. its who uses or abuses there potential that matters. I learned how bad opys is to my body/brain. its a lesson I will never forget. happiness is only an attitude with patience. I adjust well. thanks.

ann, YOUR ALIVE yay, I missed ya. peace. thanks everyone.
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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Thu Oct 08, 2015 1:36 pm

dmbas in the service, I can see it now. dmbas found dead with his head blown off. while playing Russian roulette for 2 cigarettes. lol. wut a waste of money/potential. my service is best spent helping the economy by working and buying drugs. [getting double taxed by De man[freedom isn't cheep[but worth it];]. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Thu Oct 08, 2015 1:59 pm

cheeps,

as a Christian you cant tell me im not aloud to feel invincible. that's hypocritical heresy. lol. age might slow me down, but im still aloud to feel good. hope you make the best of your day. in a selfish way, you earned it. dmbas out.
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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Fri Oct 09, 2015 12:39 pm

day 29,

a day short of 1/3 to sanity/normalcy. the days are getting easier with less influence from ill thoughts. just another day in the bank. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby cheeps » Sat Oct 10, 2015 1:11 am

DING DING DING!!!

Day 30 is here!!! You get your fucking dancing yellow dick with eyeballs!! You've sure earned the ellusive bastard!

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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Sat Oct 10, 2015 8:20 am

day 30,

thanks cheeps, where is his blue shoes.

I have to keap pride in where I am. its too easy to be back at day one, and to lengthy to fuck up. so its just another day with the opportunity to earn capability's. think I feel 70% today. yay. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby amery2u » Sat Oct 10, 2015 11:36 am

:clap: CONGRATS ON THE BIG 30, MY MAN!!!!!! :kiss:
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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Sun Oct 11, 2015 11:08 am

day 31,

thanks ann, its always a pleasure.

im starting to feel semi human again, and 75% function able. I cant complain no matter how deap the deception runs. its about work and dedication now. if I cant be the victim I have to be the victor. no choice, just time. thanks. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby amery2u » Mon Oct 12, 2015 10:15 am

D-Man, you got this.

I'm so fucking proud of you, I can't even express it. You got me thru some of my darkest days. . . literally. Your words ring SO true. Finally, good for YOU. Victor...not victim. You are priceless.

Thank YOU.
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Re: my bad..

Postby nootlsjr » Mon Oct 12, 2015 12:04 pm

day 32,

dmbas has left the site. he is no longer dormant/doormat. its time to find the right kind of acknowledgment. thanks, and cheers to the last peace. peace.
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Re: my bad..

Postby cheeps » Mon Oct 12, 2015 1:09 pm

nootlsjr wrote:day 32,

dmbas has left the site. he is no longer dormant/doormat. its time to find the right kind of acknowledgment. thanks, and cheers to the last peace. peace.




Yay!! Get out and get going! :banana:
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