cheeps wrote:Hey there, I'm back from vacation and sorry you are here but glad you've finally registered!
From here on out you need to try the slow and low method. It sucks because patience gets tried worse than any other time in your life....if you haven't read Freeagains thread, take a look. Your history is similar to his.
The cool thing about this process you are embarking on is this.....it can be done and if you commit to it, you will succeed.
Right now you are in the sub "sweet spot". At 2mgs you start to get your emotions and the five senses back. Expect to cry over sappy feed the kids, puppies, and warthog tv commercials.
I suggest you sit on 2mgs for two weeks before you drop again. I'll be glad to help you with a taper if you can commit to it. Here again is where you learn patience. Like dotz said....it took you awhile to get here, it takes time to undo the damage.
Welcome to SS!!
Hey Cheeps, thanks for stopping in, I do appreciate it, I'm on day 8 (I think) @ 1.75. Feeling stable at this dose now, so I think I'm going to take ur advice and chill here for another 5 or 6 days... Maybe give myself a short vacation from the sickness.
And I'd like to take you up on ur offer of help. I'll follow ur direction, as iam a novice (and a previous failure) in all things taper. I'm committed to getting off the sub and to only do it once..
My busy season is coming up at work soon, this has me a little worried but not too much.., the only time I felt really icky was when I did a >30% drop.. The last two 10% drops have been cake pretty much.
Oh yea, I also found some clonodine and a benzo (chloradepoxide) that my sub dr prescribed to me when he retired 5 years ago. ..
So now I've got cannabis, the clonodine, the benzo (that I can't pronounce) and some ambien and tramadol, and some lope for comfort meds.
I've only used the herb and the lope so far and hoping to stick to just that until it get really low or mayb after the jump for a few days.
I'll check out freeagains thread ASAP.. Btw is there a search function on this forum at all?
I've been blown away by how much I can smell and taste and feel since dropping my dose..
It's kind of creepy, I spend ten years basically totally out of it and I didn't even realize it at all.
I can remember being in a detox when I was 21 and noticing the sensations returning in the roof of my mouth and my fingertips.. I've been getting those same sensations the last few weeks.. Subs much more powerful than I thought.
I've been to 7 or 8 rehabs (in my youth) before I became the breadwinner of the family, anyway that first one I went to when I was 21 gave me phenobarbital (that stuff was amazing for detox).. But I've never seen it since then (except at a vets). It's prob a good thing I can't get any, because I really liked the buzz from it.. And considering my history with drugs from which I like the buzz.. It's probably best to stay away.
I've done a little research on it and apparently in the 50s phenobarbital and other barbiturates were the Prozac of their time.
Way more fun than Prozac if u ask me, lol
I remember my 3rd day at that detox (taking the phenobarbital) I told the nurse that I was good to go, that I felt fantastic.. She just laughed and smiled and said mayb give it another day or two.. (They only gave u the good drugs the first few days).
Anyway, long pointless ramble out. I'm gonna go check out freeagains thread. I'll check in In a few days when I do my next drop.
Peace and love to all at subsux