Thanks mojo, it was a rough go at times, but totally doable. You got it covered if you can stick with a taper and not let anything give you an excuse to go back up in dose.
I took my last dose in the early afternoon Monday, so today is day six, and tomorrow afternoon will be a full seven days. That seems fast. From what everyone else goes through, it seems I have about three weeks before the depression sets in...trying to get prepped for that.
Cheeps, you said it might be helpful to figure out how long ago I felt the same as I do now. That is an interesting question. Often I would get a little burst of energy after dosing at 1:30 and I always figured it could be that tiny bit of bupe, but I wondered if that was possible. So a couple days ago I tried to trick myself into thinking subconsciously that I dosed. I took a couple sublingual l-theanine supplements and did my whole dosing routine with them and sure-uh-fucking-nough, I got that same energy boost and even this feeling in between my eyes that I always thought was caused by bupe. So, who knows when I stopped really feeling that shit, but that last time I really felt it was a long time ago, maybe 0.15-0.20...I will re-check my journal.
But I have a run down of withdrawal symptoms that might narrow it down. The last time I had really bad withdrawal yawning was around 0.11, and the last time I had uncontrollable crazy sneezing was around 0.07. Those symptoms haven't returned. (Thank fuck! One time I was driving 60 mph on a two lane highway, with a wide plow truck in the oncoming lane and I had several unstoppable sneezes in a row. I could feel em coming on and was powerless to stop them, they were intense! I just fucking held the steering wheel as straight as possible and fucking hoped I could keep my arms steady.
The really intense restless legs that feel like seizures started up around 0.10 and are much worse than the ones I had in the early days of my taper. Those unfortunately haven't gone away.
I was able to drink coffee again around 0.06 and I think that is when I started exercising again too. I still am not exercising as much as I was at 1mg.
Also, some of my problems may have been because I have been sick every two weeks or so since Thanksgiving. :
I still can't tell you if I am sleeping normally or not because I am taking that cough supressent with that unisom shit in it at night. It seems to be under half a dose of a regular unisom tablet, but it must be doing something. I was coughing a lot less today though, so will probably stop taking it soon.
And aside from a crumb of a 0.25 mg sublingual klonopin (maybe 0.05 mg
) on Tuesday when I had a meeting, (taken because I didn't want to chicken out on my first day of my jump, and which I didn't feel in the slightest), I haven't taken anything aside from supplements and the cough suppressant stuff, so I still have untouched bottles of gabapentin and shit tons of clonodine and benzos, so if shit hits the fan for some reason, I have all that left. But hopefully I won't feel the urge.