yup. wrote:Cheeps......I felt honesty was the best policy when talking about what was going on in my head and with my body, as that was the best way to get advice that was actually helpful (or at least comforting while stuck in Shitsville).
One thing I’m extremely happy about right now is that I have people in the analog world that I’ve told about my jump from subs last March. My current girlfriend knows the whole situation and now two of my friends are aware of what happened. They have all been very supportive. It makes me wonder why I didn’t say anything to the people in my life earlier but there was embarrassment involved, along with knowing opiate addiction carries a heavy stigma. I don’t believe it should, especially when it comes to people trying to overcome their addictions and move forward with their lives, but that seems to be the reality of the situation. I was also anxious at a level that I hadn’t ever experienced before. Even though I still feel anxious a couple times a week it’s nothing like how I felt a year ago (or even six months ago). I am thankful for that right now.
For anybody that’s jumping off subs and going through the misery that I went through, please remember that it’s only temporary. Those moments will fade and life does get better. I never thought I’d enjoy running or doing outdoor activities but now I find myself hiking a few times a month, kayaking here and there, and exercising at least twice a week. Those are all things that sounded good in theory while I was on opiates but now I’ve made them a reality after quitting. I’m not saying that anybody that’s leaving opiates behind needs to start embracing the great outdoors (although exercise is super helpful in combating acute withdrawals and PAWS) but find something you love. After the sub haze lifts you’ll find interest in life again; you’ll find interest in things you had little concern with while on opiates. Embrace that, whatever it is (provided it’s healthy and consensual).
And Cheeps: You’re the best!!
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