cheeps wrote:Yup....you felt terrible today because something has stressed you the fuck out in the past few days. Any idea what?......could be mental or physical.
Welcome to SS....just short of hell.
I have been pushing myself physically for the last few days and I hope that isn't what made me feel terrible as my job is sometimes physically demanding and I can't use the flu excuse anymore so I need to continue pushing myself to moving around like I used to.
I think this might be the problem. It just doesn't take much to throw you back....but the good news is, it doesn't happen every time. If it continues and you have to just push through it....take a little imodium. I suggest on the days you know you have to perform really well and it's real strenuous to try 8mgs.
Imodium is not just used for dying rear. It's a very weak opiate that does not cross the BBB. If you use it often, like every day, you can become physically dependent. But most people don't run into this...I doubt you have a problem with it. When I used it 30 days post detox, I'd do about 10-14 mgs every other day. I also took a stool softener with every meal because if I didn't crap every other day, I knew I'd fuck myself up. I used it about 2-3 times a week for three weeks....then shit got more manageable and I stopped it...no issues at all.
You've had a hard time with just 5 months of sub....I'm glad as hell you weren't on it for years!!!
yup. wrote:I’ll be damned if today wasn’t completely bizarre or maybe I just met up with an acquaintance that’s shadier than I believed. I didn’t give in and I feel a sense of pride in that. I just needed to get that out there.
I also thought on the way to grabbing the cheeseburger that if that acquaintance offered me a sub I probably would’ve punched him in the dick.
Finally, a great line from the movie I'm watching. I'm about to turn it off and get into bed instead of finishing it but I've seen it a dozen times: "The fish thinks about his hunger, not about the fisherman." I'm glad I wasn't the fish today but it's only one victory and I'm sure other challenges will arise soon.
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