I guess I'll update just for all those anonymous subbers who come on here to read about how to get off....
so, 37 days today. flew by. if i remember correctly there was some "pink cloud" the first 10 days.... followed by a brief let down.... lacked some mid-day energy, only slightly, in the middle. and had some isolated days of anxiety. particularly in the middle.... around day 20-25.... i had a bad 3 or 4 days. well not bad.... i was still hanging out with friends, doing job interviews.... working out.... nothing that hindered my activity.
anyway, stopping at around .05 has been no different then lowering doses during the taper.... and to be frank, that was worse a lot of the time.
so the update is: im fine. things are great. i wont say its like the 6 year nightmare never happened.... but im living life. i really dont care about whether or not "my endorphins will start working" better or not. as far as im concerned, im totally normal right now. not sure i really believe the endorphin thing. i think that if you jump from 8 mg, 2 mg, 1 mg, or maybe even .5 milligrams..... then its prolly true. i think when you talk about "2-3 months" to get your brain, and endorphins back to functioning nearly fully 80 percent or so...... that only applies to those on heavy doses. if you have spent a few months on low doses, got disciplined with sleep, diet, exercise, work stuff etc....I believe you can cut that time in half.... and maybe even better.
anxiety seems to be pretty much totally gone. only lingering affect is that every morning at 730, stomach cramps wake me up and i pretty much still always have mild diarrhea. once in the morning and once at night....
i go to bed at 12 or 1230 and always wake up to 730. if i lay in bed, i cant go back to sleep past 730. remember when u could snort some sub before bed and sleep till 3 pm? .... yep, not anymore. i used to never wake up to my alarm. caused me problems. now i dont even use an alarm. i wake up twice to pee usually... which is pretty normal stuff for me. i pee a lot. but can fall back asleep. i have vivid rem dreams.... so i know im really sleepin,.
i take 1-2 lope a day as needed for stomach issues.
-Oxy in 08, Subs 09-14
-spent 3 months tapering and forming better habits
-jumped from .05 mg on 10/13 and felt no difference between the last few weeks of the taper and cutting completely. little to no withdrawal.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." I refuse to take credit for anything.