Silent growls

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Re: Silent growls

Postby CatsMeow » Tue Dec 05, 2017 8:55 am

Big congrats on 10 days DC! You're doing so great. Those double digits are looking really good about now. Keep up the good fight. We're with you...
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Tue Dec 05, 2017 11:03 am

Thanks everyone for the support

Cheeps I thought if you take two showers a day you can keap whereing the same clothes. Oops lol.

I slept a good 5 hours straight and feel more level headed. Just another day closer to 14. Everything I work for will catch up with reward soon enough. Thanks peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Tue Dec 05, 2017 11:56 am

It's funny how my dog knows when I'm about to be up and getts as much as he can from me and passes out on my lazier downs. I feel smart for teaching him knowledge yet somewhat of a fool for being dope feened out of my energy. Smart dog. Peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby cheeps » Tue Dec 05, 2017 5:35 pm

14 days? Let's go for 14 years.....

Ok..
Confession time....when I'm detoxing hard, I wear the same clothes, sleep in the same sheets, hardly brush my hair. Fuck it. But i do brush my teeth...about ten times a day.
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Wed Dec 06, 2017 12:14 pm

Day 11

Thanks cheeps for the support
I'm able to do stuff because I pretend dope is the reward but now I pretend it to be freedom and even get to smile lol.

I am doing as much as I can for when the ups and downs reseed and everything is just okay. Than I can look at myself and appreciate what I earned. Yay for progress peace.
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Wed Dec 06, 2017 7:02 pm

Almost day 12

I remember I got a "professional" message once. It was the only time I didn't enjoy a girl beating me up. Guess it could be worse. It could have been sensual by a dude. Lol fuck you can never win.

Long day. If 2weeks is perceived like forever. Than let it be forever. Peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby cheeps » Thu Dec 07, 2017 10:31 am

14 is good.....like I said.....14 times that....is better. You can get there.
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Thu Dec 07, 2017 11:32 pm

Start of day 13

Dam cheeps. I'm not einstein. I can't fold time. 14 days. Then 21 35 60 than who the f cares I'm shining. Thanks for the support 14 years started 14 days ago or so.

Theres not much more to say than that. Fuck. Peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Fri Dec 08, 2017 2:49 am

That 2 ml sub fuck

Normally it would be upto 6 days harsh wd than break, but this less harsh torment of rls rapid heart insomnia is hard to deal with. Any day now. You know it's your time out when it gives as much as it can to get you back. That's not the question. The question is whether I knock myself out by banging my head against the wall. I should be good. Have enough weed to stay sane. Peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Fri Dec 08, 2017 1:37 pm

Day 13

It's not always cherries and whip cream. You have to eat the pudding sometimes. Stay hungry my friends. Peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Fri Dec 08, 2017 10:32 pm

I hate too see day 13 go. Now I have to wait till 21 for my next goal but f it. It's better than single digits. Peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Sun Dec 10, 2017 2:57 am

Day 15

I don't think my nervous system is taking this upgrade to well. 14 days is the first time I look at myself and see the improvement. I'm happy about getting my figure back so fast but the downside is prolonged rls insomnia. It's never bothered me this far out before. Besides the emotional stuff its the only lingering symptom.

another penny in the bank. Fuck yay peace.
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Sun Dec 10, 2017 3:34 am

It looks like I have two black eyes from lack of sleep. So what do you tell a dmbass with two black eyes??? Nothing, you told him twice already. Lol f me peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby cheeps » Sun Dec 10, 2017 12:04 pm

You, more so than anyone, are aware of that passage of time. If I could afford one....I'd give you one of those sands in the hourglass time pieces. I always liked those.

Instead of counting days, can you count small positives?

I brushed the dog twice today.
I made some food today.
I helped someone today.

I practiced RLS last night myself. Bed looks like a bomb went off. The dogs were confused as they use the covers as a line of their side of the bed. At least the poodle puked on his side last night.
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Sun Dec 10, 2017 5:33 pm

Don't think just do. Thinking takes to much energy.

I'm good but been getting rls episodes in the beginning of the night. Then I'm good. The cycle has to break eventually. I know I'm not. I doing everything I have to like exercise clean etc than have look back days. 21 days is next check point. Just getting it done. Peace.
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Mare » Mon Dec 11, 2017 9:14 am

Congrats on hitting the 2 week mark. Keep looking forward. You're doing good. You're strong for making it, I've never made it past day 3 of anything. Keep moving forward and take that freedom you deserve. Keeping an eye on you here.

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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Mon Dec 11, 2017 12:13 pm

Thank you mare

Every day could have it's little suprises whether good or bad. It feels good to have the chance to enjoy it again. Nothing can hurt me as bad as I already have. All that's left now is living. Yay time is starting to come around and re be friend me. Peace

Day 16
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Tue Dec 12, 2017 10:37 am

Day 17

I have no worries. It's all peaches and cream on the home front. Even peaches says so. Lol

It's slowly coming together. Peace.
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Wed Dec 13, 2017 5:41 am

Day 18

DD rule#1

Don't ask a question you don't want to know the answer to.

Since I said everything before gonna post my day and a rule. Peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby SubJumpa » Wed Dec 13, 2017 9:48 am

Nice job bro!!! Don't think just do!! Fuck yeah!!
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