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Re: High

Postby Dcleanist » Sun Sep 17, 2017 7:19 pm

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Re: High

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Re: High

Postby Dcleanist » Mon Sep 18, 2017 7:00 am

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Re: High

Postby Wannabesubjumpa » Mon Sep 18, 2017 8:45 am

Heh Dc, thanks for the encouraging words man, it's helping me more than u know!! Wanted to send you a shout out and tell u that I admire your strength and perseverance!! Keep up the good work man, I'm rooting 4 u man!!!
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Re: High

Postby cheeps » Mon Sep 18, 2017 10:12 am

Dcleanist wrote:Idk if you all are praying for me but I somehow have the strength to say no and do what I have to today. Guess I should thank my stomach sickness. I'm done being weak. Time to heal help heal and reap the benefits




Being a good atheist I'm not one to technically pray...but you have been in my thoughts for fucking YEARS dude. :mrgreen: :suicide:
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Re: High

Postby Dcleanist » Tue Sep 19, 2017 11:59 am

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Re: High

Postby Lucy » Wed Sep 20, 2017 12:21 am

Has your stomach settled down now? I've been following along as you posted but didn't feel I had any input to make other than to hope you achieve your goals this time around.
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Re: High

Postby Dcleanist » Wed Sep 20, 2017 6:25 am

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Re: High

Postby Dcleanist » Wed Sep 20, 2017 9:30 am

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Re: High

Postby Lucy » Thu Sep 21, 2017 11:49 pm

When I first got clean I had to go a couple of thousand km away to do it. I had tried for 2 years with sometimes getting a few days here and there. So many cold turkey detoxes only to use again a couple of days later. It was a cycle of torment that pushed me to the brink of madness and complete despair. I tried methadone but it made me so sick I had to stop taking it. I came to realize that I had to get so far away from my sources that I'd be unable to get what I wanted. It worked. I spent about 18 months far away from "home" and when I came back I was fine. I stayed clean for 13 years and have never gone back to my specific drug of choice.

So it might be an answer for you, if having easy access is causing you to slip back all the time. Alternatively, the 12 steppers call moving to a different place "doing a geographical", because it's a well-known and tried attempt at a solution to our addiction. I guess it's a matter of being aware that no matter where you go, you take You along with you. Relocating to a place where you have no contacts might only work if you've addressed the reasons why you use. If it's anxiety or depression etc there are a lot of things that help besides drugs. Only you know.
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Re: High

Postby cheeps » Fri Sep 22, 2017 10:21 am

He can come here, bring the dog, fix my house, cut the grass, give me company and I won't even charge him.
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Re: High

Postby Wannabesubjumpa » Thu Oct 05, 2017 7:31 am

Heh Dcleanist,
Hope your hanging in there bro!!
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Re: High

Postby Dcleanist » Fri Oct 06, 2017 7:22 am

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Re: High

Postby cheeps » Fri Oct 06, 2017 8:51 am

Some inspirational music....my favorite classical piece...


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Re: High

Postby Wannabesubjumpa » Wed Oct 25, 2017 1:52 pm

Heh DC, hope your still fighting bro...
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Wannabesubjumpa » Tue Oct 31, 2017 8:20 am

Heh Dc,

Your right there too bro, as you said"pain means healing, there is a light at the end of the tunnel just can't be proceived till u get there"!! So I ask you, are you gonna take your own advice man?? You can break the cycle bro! You may very well be fighting yourself but aren't we all?? Fuck doing the world a favor, what favor did it ever do 4 u?? We both know what's waiting on the other side man- fucking freedom and I for one intend to leave this place free!!!
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Wed Nov 01, 2017 3:28 pm

I'm clean of everything including weed. I learned the past night or so to help yourself or be another statistic of a failed system bent on humiliation and ignorance. Just another number with no rights.

It's time to get strong again but this time I will not be ashamed to throw my weight around. Yay 30 pounds of muscle by 2 months. It's one of many goals and only death could stop me now.

Here we go again. Thanks peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Wannabesubjumpa » Wed Nov 01, 2017 3:43 pm

Hell yes Dcleanist,

Make those silent growls loud farocous ones and put a stranglehold on this shit!! You got this bro,just keeping fighting man!! Thanks for always throwing a kind word my way, it helps to know someone's in your corner!!

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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Wed Nov 01, 2017 9:51 pm

I think the definition of life is fight/struggle but atleast I can now take control and pick my fights more wisely. Note to self don't beat yourself up chasing your own tale. There are plenty other tails to chase.

Have a little time left in this "window of salvation" and will utilize it best possible. I don't have the mental capacity to work in acute wd without the only reward/releif possible (opys). I used to pull it off when younger and the more days working in wd made pay day that much more better. That's a triple positive witch oddly leads to a negative. Ouch

Gonna stay up tonight and tweak the kinks out in hopes of a semi good sleep tomorrow. Long night for a long life. Gonna enjoy this because I might never feel so bad again. Lol peace
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Re: Silent growls

Postby Dcleanist » Fri Nov 03, 2017 9:50 am

Getting better.

Like a poker tournament. If you have a good hand and enough chips you have to go for it. No more bluffing. Dam I make poker sound so sinister. Lol

A right mind will lead you to the right life. Honor and strength right. Peace yay clean p other than smoke. Have to smoke every few days every few days. Seperate work and play a bit. Thanks
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