Hey MLC, First, I am sending you some good vibes
and I am sorry you are having a rough go of it.
Could another option be getting another doctor, if possible? That is a bit hypocritical coming from me I guess, since I am so phobic of doctors that I have ignored some serious shit for years just to avoid them.
But it sounds like the one you have might not be so helpful. Does he drug test you?
Also, what is the longest run on bupe you had with no other opioids? I am just curious, and if you really gave bupe a shot and it didn't work, could there is something else that would work? I feel like methadone, kratom, anything else might be better than street dope... I know the media hypes things up but all this laced dope killing people lately is scary, and maybe these other things would be better than subs if you really can't use subs to get off dope.
Also, did you ever look into cognitive behavioral therapy? We talked about it once, and I was wondering if you tried it yet.