Beginning to end a long strange trip...

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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Sun Apr 16, 2017 9:08 am

I'm cooking multiple large pieces of meat and having my whole dysfunctional family over today...I'm also about to take the covers of the air condensers and get the central AC cranking...it's supposed to be in the 80s today.itll be 92 degrees in this house with all that cooking and all the hot bodies in here...next warm weather task is to get my boat ready to go to the marina for the summer...I just have to figure out how the FUCK I'm paying for that after this long,dead ass winter...trust me when I tell you..."it ain't easy being me"

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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby CheeZeeAnnDee » Thu Apr 27, 2017 6:32 pm

Hey man how are you doing? How is the pain issue going? I believe you said on another thread it was flaring up recently.
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Fri Apr 28, 2017 8:17 am

Flaring is a gross understatement...and I'm in full blown season mode work wise so...I'm just kinda fucked.i spent all day yesterday in NYC Kneeling on a 4" window sill 31 stories above 3rd ave and contemplating jumping to end the fucking agony.this pain is radiating through my leg down to my foot which is is never done before...intense burning in the leg...which I'm used to with a heaping helping of constant Charlie horse in my 3 middle toes...it's like living in a perpetual"strong man contest" holding a 300lbs barbell over your head that you can NEVER put down...fucking annoying,but...it's almost the first of the month and you know what that means....Bills need to be paid...so out the door I go...
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby CheeZeeAnnDee » Sun Apr 30, 2017 5:50 pm

Well shit. That fucking sucks. I suppose you've tried about everything for it too. Like cayenne pepper? What about hitting up a medical marijuana doctor, since so many people with chronic pain find some relief with it? They have kinds that don't get you stoned, just ease the pain.

Makes me sad to think you are out there struggling. There has gotta be something that can help.
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Eyedotz » Sun Apr 30, 2017 6:33 pm

uggh, nothing worse than losing my whole post. Damn it! haha.

Anyway, I digress... SB: I am so sorry you're going through such a shit time. You are a great man, husband, father and of course, one of my most trusted confidants and friends....I also know you are a tough fucking dude and you handle your shit with grace. Cheez is right though, maybe you should look into MMJ for pain. You can get tinctures that only provide the relief from symptoms without the high. In the past couple years, it has been discovered that 25% less people use opiates for pain relief since switching over to medical weed in Maine. That is a pretty good percentage, if you ask me. AND you can totally vape that shit...totally your wheelhouse man. Anyway, hang in there babe...I know it's tough. We are here you for, as always...Hugs my NY pal.
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Tue May 02, 2017 6:38 am

Thanks for the suggestions and the sympathy my kind friends...I actually have been experimenting with the vapable form of medical grade THC.Its the big thing here these days...a couple of my pothead pals from my office have a source and I've been hitting it to no avail...I also got some gummies and chocolate varieties that have done very little for this pain either.this is really deep nerve shit that seems fucking impossible to touch.i even got my hands on a bunch of Lyrica from my brother who also suffers from chronic pain(diabetic neuropathy) and I had a violent allergic reaction to the shit that caused violent shaking and dizziness...so...WTF.?.?.? The bupe helps to make it bearable mostly...some days are worse than others and I'm so fucking used to living like this that it seems fucking normal to me.whatever...I try to not dwell on it and just deal with it because it's my only option.if I let it get me physically AND mentally I get too defeated to keep going and that's not gonna help or work so...fuck it...

On a lighter note,I got a new vape that looks like a tobacco pipe and its fucking exquisite...love it...and that kinda shit keeps me going.gives me something to divert my stress from work and pain issues so...fuck it.

Thanks again girls,I gotta get out out here...the beautiful people need me!!!
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Sun May 14, 2017 7:15 am

Not sure if this post will even make it onto the site based on the on going dysfunction we've been experiencing but...

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL!!!!!! I hope your all being treated to a wonderful day by your children and spouses...

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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby cheeps » Sun May 14, 2017 11:14 am

It's time to trash a thread....I'm thinking cheeeeez.
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby cheeps » Sun May 14, 2017 11:52 am

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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Mon May 15, 2017 5:56 am

:o :o :o oh my... I can see its..."EYEDOTZ" :o :o :o
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Eyedotz » Mon May 15, 2017 7:08 am

That is 100% where my screen name comes from! I freaking love bird eyes.... cutest little dinosaurs.... eyedotz doesn't make sense to anyone unless you know me personally. I have 2 ring neck doves that live at my parents house. Poor things are pushing 18 years old and one is very arthritic...I love those things and it will be a sad day when... well you know. I have one with red eyes and I swear in the right light... I can see straight though the other side. Silly simple little feathered things. Love um.... perfect pic cheeps!
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Fri Jun 09, 2017 1:06 pm

So I'm in the oral surgeons office about to deal with the SECOND dental emergency I've had in the last 2 weeks...
THANKYOU BUPRENORPHINE!!! Fucking insanity!!! $1500 last time and god only knows what this prick is gonna hit me for to extract an infected bupe deteriorated molar....and this pain makes my spinal condition feel like a birthday party. FUCK ME
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Eyedotz » Fri Jun 09, 2017 4:19 pm

Oh dude, that fucking sucks man. I'm sorry. If you visit the other site, they can tell you that tooth deterioration has nothing to do bupe. Gawd, there are soooo many things that changed after getting off sub. I guess it was all in my head.

I always used Crest pro health toothpaste and it helped when I had a constant sub infusion. I ended up with really sensitive teeth but this could just be me. Dude, take calcium supplements too. I feel sad for you SB... I know you cannot help being on this shit. All you can do is combat it with vitamins and good toothpaste. You have to literally fight it from within. I've heard if you brush and mouthwash afterward, that it helps. No fucking clue if it's true though. Hugs my friend.
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Fri Jun 09, 2017 7:59 pm

Thanks Dotz...miss talking with you...I got an appointment with an implant specialist on 6-30-17.should be @ a $35,000 under taking to get done all what's fucked...perhaps one of you can please just shoot me.?.?.?one quick pop to the forehead should do it.

One last thought...the sound your teeth make when they are being excavated from your jaw is fucking personally obscene.nobody can hear it but you and it's fucking really quite intense.crunching and snapping and grinding...fucking awesome.then I went back to work...with my rubber novacaine lips trying to hit my vape rig...fucking classic
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby cheeps » Sat Jun 10, 2017 10:30 am

Subblind wrote:Thanks Dotz...miss talking with you...I got an appointment with an implant specialist on 6-30-17.should be @ a $35,000 under taking to get done all what's fucked...perhaps one of you can please just shoot me.?.?.?one quick pop to the forehead should do it.

One last thought...the sound your teeth make when they are being excavated from your jaw is fucking personally obscene.nobody can hear it but you and it's fucking really quite intense.crunching and snapping and grinding...fucking awesome.then I went back to work...with my rubber novacaine lips trying to hit my vape rig...fucking classic



:banghead: :rofl: :banghead: :rofl: :banghead: :rofl:

I can't help but laugh and commiserate with you...I have to have another pulled myself. :punchballs:

SB, my teeth are toast...the methadone years have caused bone loss....so I can't even think of implants....don't have the bone to put them in....one day it will be dentures for me. Fuck it..... :MrT:
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Mon Jun 12, 2017 7:27 am

No dentures...OMG...all I can picture is that commercial for dog biscuits with that fucking dog with humans teeth.with all the advancement in shit these days why can't they just take a set of dentures and SCREW them bastards to the roof of your mouth.?.?.? That would work for the top,give me a little time I'll figure out how to attach the bottoms...dentistry,surgery whatever it's no different than any other renovation project.the only difference is the tools are cleaner and the fucks charge a THOUSAND DOLLARS an hour!!!
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby cheeps » Mon Jun 12, 2017 10:37 am

That's the fucking problem....I don't have 2k per hour. Dentistry is a lucrative field now because of implants. Definitely a profession to consider for you....ready to go back to school? :P :mrgreen:
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby Subblind » Tue Jul 18, 2017 6:48 am

It's been too long...where's Dotz and CHEEZE?...
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby cheeps » Wed Jul 19, 2017 9:58 am

It's time to trash their threads!!! :twisted:
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Re: Beginning to end a long strange trip...

Postby CheeZeeAnnDee » Thu Jul 20, 2017 8:09 pm

Well, well, well, what's going on in here, hmm? How, are your teeth Subblind? I assume all your expensive dental work didn't interfere with your vaping, because we all probably would have heard about it by now if it had. :D
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