Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Turnbull » Thu Apr 07, 2016 7:57 pm

Glad to see that you are doing good Sleeze. Just wanted to say good luck on your exam tomorrow!
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Wed May 11, 2016 11:18 am

Thanks Turnbull. I passed both exams and got my license. I start work at a major hospital on the 31st. Life is pretty good. I'm hoping after so much time goes by I'll forget I was ever on subs. Maybe that's not realistic. I'll keep trying to check in at least monthly. I saw a dude that I was in group with at the VA hospital the other day and it was strange cause I know hes still on subs because he just looked vacant. Something changes in your eyes when you get off dope. Its hard to explain. I feel I'm an expert drug spotter now! LOL. My gf thinks I'm crazy... but it takes one to know one. Thanks everybody for the support. I've been thinking about going to NA meeting lately just because I tend to want to talk about stuff sometimes and my gf has never been on dope. What do you guys think about going to meeting even though I've been clean for like 5 or 6 months now.
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby cheeps » Wed May 11, 2016 2:47 pm

Check it out but watch out for court appointed people that use them to sell dope after the meetings! If you are in a bigger city you kght look up sober recovery meetings too.

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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Turnbull » Wed May 11, 2016 9:02 pm

I don't believe in higher powers Sleeze, but being around other people going through the same thing that you are does feel good and can be very helpful. If I didn't have 5 young pups, I'd give it a try myself. I really felt good after the "group therapy" my sub doctor required me to attend, because it made me feel like I wasn't going through it alone. Congrads bud! Oi! Keep kickin ass! -Jay
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Fri Aug 05, 2016 9:17 pm

aight. i been off now for like 7 or 8 months or something. still clean. thought i'd check in. i always hated it when people never reported back. life's not perfect but its way better without subs. that about sums it up. any questions feel free to ask
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby cheeps » Sat Aug 06, 2016 7:08 am

Bsleezy32 wrote:aight. i been off now for like 7 or 8 months or something. still clean. thought i'd check in. i always hated it when people never reported back. life's not perfect but its way better without subs. that about sums it up. any questions feel free to ask




You kick that ass sleazy! Thank you for updating :D how is your motivation?
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Sat Aug 06, 2016 8:14 pm

motivation?... meh, its not great. Can you be more specific? You mean like motivated to stay clean?
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby cheeps » Sun Aug 07, 2016 6:36 am

Well now, there's both kinds....country and western...right?

Physical is what I meant....but check in on both....inquiring minds want to know....
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Turnbull » Mon Aug 08, 2016 8:43 am

Hey sleeze. I am at 9 months too. Doing pretty good. I hope you are too.
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby cheeps » Mon Aug 08, 2016 8:46 am

It s so good to see that both of you are healing.

TB....this is your last rodeo....right?
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Turnbull » Mon Aug 08, 2016 1:11 pm

Funny you should ask. Freddy came knockin yesterday because he was holdin.
I politely told him to piss off!

Yeah, no more rodeos for this Bull. :deadhorse:
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Thu Sep 08, 2016 10:15 pm

Yeah fuck Freddy. Strangely enough the only cravings I get are for subs. Motivation comes and goes. I'm happy to be 9 months free or whatever I'm at but I still have problems sleeping. Hope your doing well Turnbull. Do you feel like you have any residual issues?
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Thu Oct 06, 2016 10:44 pm

Just wanted to update. I think Im like 8 or 9 months off now. The past few weeks I have been going back and forth between day and nights shift 12hr.. and really became an insomniac. On my last day I was so tired and anxious I had convinced myself I needed to return to subs and was dead set on calling my Psych Dr at the VA and telling her to put me back on.

My GF started crying and told me she would leave because shed rather see me stressed out than dead inside from the subs. That night I fell asleep and dreamt like I hadnt done since before I was ever on drugs. I never called my doc. At our appt today I told her I was struggling but Id rather struggle than give in. Its hard sometimes for me seeing the light at the end of the tunnel or whatever metaphor you wanna use. Thankfully my girlfriend is still with me to show me its still lit. So yeah, 8 or 9 months plus and still trying to adjust. Thanks for listening.
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Thu Oct 06, 2016 10:55 pm

PS: My psych doc also tried to get to start those injections that block dope if your relapse. I declined because I dont want anymore drugs in me right now. I'm taking buspirone but it doesnt do crap. Placebo effect maybe. Anyway I've always thought less is more when trying to heal your brain.
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby cheeps » Fri Oct 07, 2016 7:27 pm

Bsleezy32 wrote:PS: My psych doc also tried to get to start those injections that block dope if your relapse. I declined because I dont want anymore drugs in me right now. I'm taking buspirone but it doesnt do crap. Placebo effect maybe. Anyway I've always thought less is more when trying to heal your brain.



You are right about this. I take celexa and have thru all my detoxes. I was almost off the shit one time and my anxiety flared up so badly, I gave in and stayed on it. I should have tapered it more but I jumped off out of sheer impatience.

Having patience is so fucking hard but if you can just find ways to get thru the urges....like having your gf help you again....

Maybe you could set up a code word with her when your having those bad moments...that way it's more of a structured plea for help...so she won't get freaked but she'll know you are struggling. :?:
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Sat Jan 14, 2017 2:12 am

still off subs if anyones still out there
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby cheeps » Sat Jan 14, 2017 12:42 pm

Of course we are here.....you fucking kick Freddy's ASS!!!!!!
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby The Blind Ass » Sat Jan 14, 2017 1:54 pm

Your a champion in my eyes. Keep up the great work.
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby Bsleezy32 » Mon Feb 13, 2017 12:49 pm

So I think I'm now at 1 year off subs. I'd like to say I never think about it but Id be lying. Its not like I crave them in any way but I find myself constantly reflecting on how I spent so much time of my life on subs. I also try to remember that guy who was high on subs all the time and its strange but I cant relate. Some people I havent seen in years give off a feeling of "wow your a lot different" but in a good way and they never say anything. I always think way too hard about things.
If there is literally one person out there who stops taking subs and I in some way I helped in the very very slightest I'm ok with the time I wasted on subs. Hope all is well out there. Never give up. BTW I'm now the 2nd person to ever get off subs from the VA in my city. ITs a fairly big city. I would have liked to be #1 but second place aint bad.
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Re: Questions regarding KRatom during taper. 7 years on...

Postby cheeps » Mon Feb 13, 2017 5:19 pm

I just hope there can be MORE behind you bleez.

Do you ever get to tell your story there?


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