Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby Ready_For_Change » Thu Aug 18, 2016 10:56 am

Dan I read you started taking aderral to keep moving and that's what I have, not to keep moving simply cause I'm ADD! Should I not take them, and if not how to I deal with my wd and climbing the wall!! This really sucks! I sneeze hard to where it actually hurts, and so hard other things follow! So I feel the difference in my body!
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby cheeps » Fri Aug 19, 2016 4:36 pm

Sweetie....Dan isn't here anymore. You should NOT take adderal during detox or afterwards.
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby mynameisDAN82 » Sun Oct 02, 2016 9:32 pm

I still on occasion, disguised as a guest, lurk the underworld of fed up subbers.

Oct. 20th I will be at 4 years.



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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby CheeZeeAnnDee » Mon Oct 03, 2016 8:05 am

As someone hoping to jump before the new year, I would love to hear how you would describe the last four years. If you feel like sharing. :D
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby mynameisDAN82 » Mon Oct 03, 2016 4:25 pm

CheeZeeAnnDee wrote:As someone hoping to jump before the new year, I would love to hear how you would describe the last four years. If you feel like sharing. :D


Yeah, for sure.

I guess the most important aspect of change has been my ability to learn who I am as a person. Instead of drowning my emotions in a sea of synthetic odiods, I am able to recognize my short comings and grow from my mistakes.

There have been a lot of ups but just as many downs- thats just fuckin life though, right? The difference is, I'm able to enjoy life instead of regretting it.

The very thought of taking a bump of bupe makes me feel sick and it rarely ever enters my mind.

I really hope you're able to get over this hurdle! It takes a true dedication to the concept of "never again".
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby cheeps » Mon Oct 03, 2016 5:25 pm

Hey there dano! I was thinking about you the other day.....how are you and how's the kid?
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby mynameisDAN82 » Mon Oct 03, 2016 10:52 pm

cheeps wrote:Hey there dano! I was thinking about you the other day.....how are you and how's the kid?


Truthfully, I was thinking of you as well.

My boy is doing really great, thank you for asking. He is so damn smart and wanting to copy everything I do. ( I know, I know, him wanting to copy me is the opposite of smart :lol: )
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby CheeZeeAnnDee » Wed Oct 05, 2016 9:19 am

Isn't it interesting that the thought of taking bupe triggers a 'sick' feeling. I am still tapering, down to 0.20 today, and I expected to have some cravings for more bupe when dealing with bigger stressors. Yesterday I had a pretty big stressful event, and the thought of taking more bupe made me feel revolted. It reminded me of how I feel thinking about Jagermeister. I got wasted on Jager as a teenager, so drunk that I slept in a bathtub, and ever since then the thought of drinking it makes me nauseous. I am starting to get the same feeling when I think about taking more bupe. Maybe my subconscious is starting to think of it like a poison. Weird.

Thank you for summarizing the 4 year post-bupe mindframe. It makes a big difference for people in my position to see that others have crawled out of this pit and managed to stay out for years. It sounds like hard work, but rewarding hard work. I think I am ready for that.
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby mynameisDAN82 » Wed Oct 05, 2016 11:36 am

Feeling stressed out is your brains way of telling you to act- to do something to solve a problem. Society pushes the concept that stress is bad( and is some cases, medically speaking, it is) but in normal circumstances, it's what pushes us forward in life.

Using drugs as a coping mechanism to avoid stress becomes habitual in nature and is extremely difficult break away from.

You being able to control your urge is a huge step in the right direction! Big ups to you!

One of the biggest hurdles for me was my fear of not having energy to keep up with life. Being completely sober, I now have more energy than I ever remember having. Life gets better. Your body and mind will heal. :thumbup:
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby CheeZeeAnnDee » Wed Oct 05, 2016 1:00 pm

mynameisDAN82 wrote: One of the biggest hurdles for me was my fear of not having energy to keep up with life. Being completely sober, I now have more energy than I ever remember having. Life gets better. Your body and mind will heal. :thumbup:

Thank you. I really needed to hear that today. I am damn exhausted. It is good to know it goes away.
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby cheeps » Mon Jul 03, 2017 6:58 am

Bump
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby mynameisDAN82 » Fri Jul 21, 2017 9:54 am

cheeps wrote:Bump



Go bump yourself, bitch :blowme: :lol:


P.S. :kiss:
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Re: Journal of a jump, 1 month and beyond

Postby cheeps » Fri Jul 21, 2017 12:58 pm

mynameisDAN82 wrote:
cheeps wrote:Bump



Go bump yourself, bitch :blowme: :lol:


P.S. :kiss:



About time asshole!

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