I want to say hello and tell you I've been where you are a number of times but just kept detoxing to retox, detox to retox to detox to retox, etc. You get the idea. I finally stayed on this crap in mid January because I could not stand one more relapse. The intent was to get stable on 2mgs and get the hell off of this shit.
You don't wanna do that, right? You've been down the sub hell road. I had only read about it and had only used it for detoxing and never maintenance until mid January. I knew what I was getting into. Well, kinda. I don't believe one can REALLY know until they experience a sub taper which is where I find myself today.
I truly hope you can stay off your DOC and subs. I wouldn't even be in physical withdrawal and just kept right on relapsing after a few days when the subs wore off. I'd tell myself that I didn't want to be on subs but somehow the cravings for my DOC would be so bad that I would relapse and then use the subs to detox again. [repeat, ad nauseam.]
Anyhow, I just want to wish you all the best with this. I'm glad you came back here considering what you are going through and with the reintroduction of subs in your life.
I like cheeps' advice to just take 1mg if you really need it. It could help you through cravings and it would buy you some time where your DOC would not have much if any effect.
Good luck with this and welcome back.
Subterfuge: noun 1.) an artifice or expedient used to evade a rule, escape a consequence, hide something, etc.