LV, first of all, welcome to the site...secondly...can you lose the caps?? I FEEL LIKE YOU ARE YELLING AT US! and I know your not.
Please please go to the ER and tell them the true amount of k-pins you've been taking and how you are feeling. You need to be detoxed with Valium. Trust me, I've been through this many times and have experienced seizures and visual hallucinations. Not pleasant. You blood pressure bottoms out.
I'm confused why you want sub? it's not for benzo's...just please go to the ER, explain calmly what is happening say over and over you need help. The FEAR acronym you used tells me you've been to AA or NA. If you have peeps from there that can guide you, please lean on them.
I wish you the very best and hope you check back in with us.
edited to add, sorry I didn't see about the sub taper. You are going thru hell...please find in patient to go to....