Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

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Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

Postby sublows » Fri Aug 10, 2012 2:46 pm

Here I am, after being clean since july 17...I know im no where over the battle, but due to recent successes in life I was beginning to think the enemy had lost most of its will to fight...this is not the case.
I have an excedingly rare case of ADHD, and since I had been clean, I really had not even noticed it. but over the the past few days it has seemed to grab me by the throat and slam my face straight into the fucking ground. To be honest, if I took the meds the doctors gave me I would probably not even be posting this, but after a bad run in with doctor prescribed treatments for it, I strongly decided against taking any of the supposed miracle drugs for people with my "disorder". I am very seriously considering calling my behavioral specialist this very minute to set up an appointment and get back on(prescribed dosage with my mom dispensing them, so there is no possibility for abuse)
but here is the catch, it does help me focus, stay on task for more then 10 minutes, and many other wonderful benefits. BUT it literally CHANGES who and what I am. Since I have been clean everyone around me, has loved being around me, I have a gift for brightening peoples day...when im on the focalin, ritalin, adderal what ever the fuck they are calling it now adays, I feel as do the people around me, as though im not the same person. Maybe its not a bad thing, but I start to focus more on my problems and how to fix them, rather than trying to help other people fix their problems(one of my great joys in life) and that is why im so hesitant to even start taking this. not to mention it does alter eating/sleeping habits.
I have no desire...at all...to go back to the opiates. And mayhaps this is all just part of the process of getting clean and maybe it will go away in a few months. But right now I could REALLY use any input good or bad.
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Re: Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

Postby sublows » Fri Aug 10, 2012 2:55 pm

actually, though its selfish im going to move this to the crisis forum.
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Re: Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

Postby abacus23 » Tue Oct 09, 2012 7:54 pm

I just quit sub for 35 days and I was (for the first time in my life) complaining about having ADD problems. I couldn't complete any tasks I started and sometimes couldn't follow conversations like I had in the past. I had a sort of mental fog that I couldn't shake and I seriously felt like I was suffering from ADD for the first time in my life. So your problem could also be a withdrawal symptom. Just sayin'... Good luck!
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Re: Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

Postby Special K » Wed Oct 10, 2012 6:35 am

Hey S.B. & aba

I spoke to this maybe a month or two back. I was diagnosed w/ ADD in my mid 30's, and was prescribed Adderall before, during, and after my use of opiates.

I quit taking my Adderall - I don't know exactly when - but sometime during my last relapse in August when I ran out. I have been thinking for the past week about asking my new psychiatrist to write a script and get me on them again, but then I wonder if I just want some kinda drug to take twice a day.... satisfy my need to (attempt to) regulate my thoughts/emotions.

My appointment isn't til next Tuesday, so I have a week to mull it over. He isn't a big script writer, though - I may just be setting myself up for a let down. My thoughts are so scattered, I really just want to line them all up in a neat, organized row in my mind - and then be able to have that same neat, organized line of thoughts come out of my mouth and/or act on them. But that hasn't happened for years, it seems. I dunno :shrug: kinda chasing my tail here. I don't think the adderall worked all that well when I was taking it - but I definetly focus a little bit better with it. A little bit - not much.

Maybe I'll put it on the back burner for another month. Give my brain some time to heal itself before I medicate again.

But on the other hand... I REALLY need to get my ass in gear with my court stuff, and get my petitions filed for custody of my kids. Thinking the Adderall or another ADD med may definetly be what I need here.

Thoughts?

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Re: Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

Postby SoCal » Thu Oct 11, 2012 6:12 am

hey special one!!

sorry to hear more problems,,you ask thoughts?,,well,,i dont know much about taking adderall or ritalin,,except for when i abused it in the past,,its not strong and doesnt last as long,,but speed nonetheless, Can you take it as presceibed?,.,The last i heard anything about adhd was from a smart alleck dude on a radio talk show,,and he was sayin we didnt have that back in the old days,,he said ,,hell,,everybody has it,,but we dont need to take meds for it!!,,Im just repeating what somebody said on the radio so dont take anything i just said as anything but un-rechearched bullshit on my part. Taking speed to feel normal just reminds me of me taking sub to feel normal way back when,,or taking klonopins to help with stress,,hell,,i have had alot of stress in my earlier yrs and i didnt have to take a pill for it,,I learned to adapt and deal with it,,but after sub came along ,,it seems my way of thinking has changed ,,made it easier to add more pills to the program.
Dont take what im sayin as advise not to take meds for your problem cause i have no idea whats right or wrong in your situation,,sometimes i guess were screwed and really do have to trust in a doctor,,but i think one thing weve all learned is getting a second opinion is always a great idea,,but how do we afford that?,,no matter what happens ,,in the meantime try and pshych yourself into thinkin you can handle it ,,and you will if you have to!!
Good luck with all your court stuff.
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Re: Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

Postby Special K » Thu Oct 11, 2012 4:52 pm

SoCal wrote:in the meantime try and pshych yourself into thinkin you can handle it ,,and you will if you have to!!

Thanks, Tommy!

I think that's probably the best advise - after all, I can't always have a pill to help me with everything I need help with!

Thanks!

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Re: Fucking A.D.H.D..input please

Postby AVinLo » Sun Sep 21, 2014 11:39 pm

Special K wrote:
SoCal wrote:in the meantime try and pshych yourself into thinkin you can handle it ,,and you will if you have to!!

Thanks, Tommy!

I think that's probably the best advise - after all, I can't always have a pill to help me with everything I need help with!

Thanks!

Kat


I think we can place some blame on the greed of big pharma for providing us privileged Americans a pill for EVERYTHING.
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