Well this has been one hell of a ride! After taking suboxne for 4 years at 8mgs and jumping in 5 weeks, has been my hardest challenge! I'm proud to say as hard as it's been I'm okay today, and feel better than I have in years! This trip was not only physical for me, but mental as well! I've been numb so long I never really grieved my grandmothers death! She was my best friend, and rock! As hard as it's been, I've stated strong through it, even on my lonely days! I just keep in my head what my grandma would want for me, and my family! I've carried my families burdens too long! I KNOW staying clean won't be hard, cuzz I know I never want to go through this again!