I don't usually help too many people anymore..
I don't really like to post about my experience getting off of sub because it was such a mess and it was so painful..
The way I got into this mess was.. I had to have a routine foot surgery.. well the Dr. fucked it up and I ended up having to have 5 in a year..
I found myself addicted to percocet I took about 60mg a day..
I had never been in this situation before so I thought I was doing the right thing by going to detox to just get it over with.. I had a 3 and 5 year old at the time.. Anyway that is where I got on Sub..
I didn't know what it was or that it was addictive.. all I knew was that it made me feel better.
I was on it for about a year until I tried to get off of it myself.. I tapered down over months and was in w/d for like 2 months while taking about .5 or .25mg.. I couldn't do it.. so I went back up in my dose.. This was the spring of 08 that December I found this board and tried unsuccessfully a few times to jump.. The people here gave me some serious ass kickings.. (tough love).
Anyway by the time I finally got off of it I was so unhappy and felt so bad while on it that I had to get off of it.. I had to have one more foot surgery in June of 09 and I got my Dr. who knew me before this shitstorm started and he gave me some SAO's to help me finally get off of it.. I am happy to say I didn't even take them all..
So I took my last sub on 8/26 of 09 I think and my last benzo (had tapered them since 3/09) on 9/5/09 .. I used the sao's for around 21 days and then I just suffered.. by November of 09 I started volunteering at my kids Christian school, making the banner for the Christmas concert and teacher aiding.. OH..
I was a lunch lady too.
I would still have bad anxiety, it was a roller coaster ride.. but I felt better when I wasn't at home.. So I went there 3 days a week.. By Spring I felt pretty damn good and had an AWESOME summer in 2010 and the rest is history..
I still come to SS.. to be honest it's not really about helping people.. it's to chat with the GREAT friends I have met here.. I truly love them.. we don't really talk drugs it's just about life.. sharing about our day ect.. The first year I helped a lot.. and would get really invested in people and then they would just disappear..
I guess I see some "what I think" are genuine people here looking for help.. and I am in the mood to help again..
I can tell you though I would have NEVER made it without SS or the people here.. I lived here when I felt bad and I didn't feel all alone anymore.. I had NO ONE in real life that understood what I was going through.
So just keep hanging in there and Pm me if I can be of help.. It will get better.. PROMISE!!