Hi True, after going to a million meetings, which saved my ass, I got tired of hearing the same people say the same things. In the beginning I did need it, and the people. I didn't search around for too many other meeting either, and I would go back if I thought I wanted to do H or something else. All my friends are in recovery, and not many go to meeting anymore. My sponor told me we didn't get clean and sober to live in the rooms.
I needed something different and deeper and I found a really cool rock-in-roll, nonjudgemental chruch. you can wear jeans, shorts, no one cares about those kind of things, and it truely brings me joy. I will always need some form of help, more spirtual. I had over 20 years clean, fell 3 times and my ortho MD sent me to pain management.
did that for several years and one day my MD closed his office with all my records and I had to go to work and not be in WDS, thus the MF MD subsucker from hell who started me out at 32mg for taking oxycodone 30mg 4-6x a day.
I choose not to go back into pain management, get off subs, and see where I'm at. I have 4 herniated discs, spinal stenosis, right knee torn, and 2 bad shoulders, one needs surgery, the other is scare tissue from the gunshot wound. I'm always in pain from the time I get up until I go to bed. I take advil and hot showers, ice, heating pad etc. The ortho MD also wanted to do surgery on my back, but I would still have all the other pain.
Anyway you need to do what works for you. Many people are against AA and NA, but I believe everyone has a choice about their recovery. What works for one, may not work for another. There was alot of bs rules, but as they say, take what you need and leave the rest. I sponsor 2 people, but we're great friends, and talk many things out, help eachother, or just listen. I am grateful for the AA days because I believe I'd be dead by now if not for the support I got. That was in the 80's and 90's. This site has helped me get off subs and gives understanding like no one else as no one understand subs or detoxing off of them, especially the MF MDs. so do what you need to do to stay clean, whatever it is, its your choice.
this is for you sara